What a week

I guess you could say I am pretty stressed out about the coming week. Unfortunately this anxiety is ruining the week I am currently in. I can't sleep. I mostly eat out of obligation. Usually, surrounding myself with friends or family or getting it all out there eases the pent up frustration but lately it only seems to intensify or add to my frustration.

I find that the root of my problem is that ultimately I am not trusting God with the outcome and giving Him control. In Bible study Wednesday night Don led us in a discussion of Colossians 4:2-6. In verse 2 Paul says to pray with thanksgiving. By doing so we say that we trust God and His plan, whatever the outcome. First of all, I don't pray as I ought to....out of divine necessity. Second, I realize that I am most concerned with the outcome, and don't really trust God's plan. If I did, I would not live the way I do, worrying about everything.

Don't take the above statement the wrong way. I am most grateful for those of you out there who have recently befriended me and tried to encourage me. But you simply can't do for me what it is I need to do. I need to get on my knees and pray. You can, however, pray for me.