School

How is it possible that I can get scores in the 90's in 3 classes and then scores in the 40's in the other? Is that really a reflection on me or does that say something about the instructor? School is so frustrating. I thought I'd feel so relieved when tonight came, because I won't have school for 5 days. But as soon as I finished all the assignments I had this week and turned them in, I moved on to worrying about my nutrition exam next week. School sucks. I've been doing a lot of reconsidering lately about doing my internship and the master's program at CSULB. Many of the classes for them are taught by the professor who is currently giving me 40's. I could do the internship somewhere else and never have to see her again. I could skip the masters. I could skip the internship and forget about getting my RD. I can still get a decent job with my BS. I just don't want to end up feeling like I've wasted so much energy...keeping up my GPA, getting work experience, doing clubs....all of that was to get into an internship. Graduation is going to happen (assuming the professor curves my 40's). I just don't know what I want to do after that. It's be nice to work and pay off my debt, get a place of my own. But how will that affect my future? I'm too tired for this conversation in my head! Time for more Heroes...